As I have stopped and slowed way down, the is a shift taking place in my life. It is a necessary SHIFT for me. To navigate the World as it is now, and not knowing what our NORMAL will be. I feel personally for me that different mindset is essential, but also scary requiring a huge step of faith on my part.
Over this past year and into this New Year, life has brought me face to face with me, what I believe in, what I thought was important, who and what I value and how do I move forward in life? I am admit to you reading this, and to myself that the process hasn’t been a pleasant one.
Depression has been a frequent companion, and even my panic disorder has flared up. At first, I allowed and felt self-pity hanging around pretending to be my friend. But you see it was not for what I have come to understand that one negative thought or feeling you entertain for too long, tends to always invite friends to join the party. Friends like depression, fear, loneliness, panic etc.
Hard times just kept coming, and my mental state kept up with the DRAMA. I began to feel ugly and body same myself as well. The irony of it is, I am a Christian Life Counsellor and inspire other women about loving themselves, overcoming the trials that life can bring. And yet here at this time under these circumstances I was falling prey.
Well I am just saying that no matter what, I realize that “I was not built to break”…kirk franklin. There is a master plan and I am still very much a part of it and so are you. No, life is not perfect but there is always light at the end of a tunnel, sometimes you just have to look really hard for it.